Long and Bored Holiday..

1 June.. It's June already... Started to realize i had waste half of this year.. Yet Still didn't had much motivation to start study..

Well last time exam.. Actually have some improvement IN MY OPINION.. But the marks still very low.. Especially the SEj.. I really hate it.. Why don't i smash it in to the trash bin..

i understand that from the beginning of the year till now.. Nothing much had change from my result till my attitude.. Am i become a bad girl lately.. Well I always waste money on buying some "cute things", delay my assignment, not doing the revision, past the time by reblog and like in tumblr.. Hmmm

I"M SO BAD...

Why am i feel so guilty..

Feel bad and shame in whatever i done... Pathetic for myself

T_T I'm actually crying..

I get influent easily.. Still remember the time when i'm having PMR... Read the book like mad, Memorize all the note.. And finally get the worst result in my family..

I need to change.. I must change.. I must prove that i'm good in study too.. I want to become independent.. I want to study abroad... Japan.. Do whatever i want, get whatever i need..

Maybe tomorrow i change.. Who know.. Yeah who know...