I have anxiety

The World is getting scary to me. Why do I only mention me instead of us. Well, while ma2019jority of the human being are worrying about the COVID-19, world economics, losing job and stuff, I am worrying about my health and mental.

I need to admit that I have anxiety.

I started with cover up the last month story first. I got a job as soon as February begin. My first job as a M&E Engineer but unfortunately, I began to have anxiety during my work. To be honest, I know I am not okay since the end of December 2019 . Like my previous post had mention, I have feel the strong anxious feeling, worry, a feeling kind of like depression. I am being self-conscious, uncomfortable and feel like vomit during work. Everyday is like hell for me during that times. I became so nervous whenever people were started to notice or look at me. For only a week, I survived only a week and I had lose to my anxiety. I actually not remember well how I felt but I know it was hell for me. Everyday was so tiring. I trembled every times when I was at work. I didn't feel like talking to anyone. Breathing was a tired thing to me and my chest felt so heavy. I didn't feel like eating too. At the end, I choose to quit. I have not yet talk to my family about this. Just hope there will be a perfect time for me to tell. Its been a month after I quit and I only did tell my friends.

At the beginning, I felt useless of myself, so disappointed of myself, self pitying and every self  judgement I could done. I cried alone, I desperately want to talk to someone and asked for help. I was so jealous of all the walking strangers around me and sometimes I still do. I fely like I had forgotten how did I keep alive all these times. Forgotten how to be relax and much more. I even feel like time passed really slow. The feeling of helpless was so strong. The whole thing lasted about a week.

I did write down my deep feelings. It did help a bit at the beginning. I wrote the things I wanna achieve and I clearly thought I'm gonna get through all of these depressions and live healthfully and freely. But after a few day, the helpless feeling came back. Everyday was like a cycle. I woke up, felt depress, talked to a friend or stranger through the GOODNIGHT app, felt better and then I slept to end the day. It repeat the same and lasted about a week.

I told my closed friends, I did hint my mom. And when I though the pain gonna last long, I felt greatful as I experience less feeling now. I wonder why and how but I think it might be I passed through the hardest part or get used to it.


I could not say I had passed the hard times as sometimes I still can feel the sadness deep inside. I could not find out the reason I am having all these feeling until now. But I know that I am not gonna let myself to continue stay in the sudden sadness which its not really a big deal at all. And I started to accept that I was sad, I was in depression.

But things don't get better. I noticed that I had difficulty while driving. I think it might be the driving anxiety.

At first it happened when it was in long distance, from my home to KK city. Once or twice would happen for a rout. I used to be able to control it by taking deep breath. Then, the distance become shorter. I could only drive to kingfisher. Then Sulaeman, Telipok area and lastly only within the Bandar Sierra. And now, even deep breath could not help me much.

The other day where I wish to drive to One Borneo. During the journey, I could felt the anxiety coming but I pushed myself to fight for it. That time, I kind of lose to it, as soon as I did the u-turn, I felt light-headed, dizzyness, and felt that I might faint or lose control. I was so scared that I might hit someone or cause accident. I stopped at the bus station. I could felt my heart beat really fast. That time i know it really is a big deal.

What worry me the most is that how am I going to tell my family about my anxiety that come from no where. I really wanted to look for a doctor but have no courage to.

My condition still not be findout by them due to the COVID outbreak. To those that think the movement control/lockdown is a miserable event to them, it was actually a stolen time for me. I really don't know how and what to do after the outbreak. About my job, about my anxiety.

I had plan abit. Its either tell them I'm fired ot to start for a work from home career. Or if I am lucky enough, I could pass the ATC online exam and interview to get train at KL. I just hope that my anxiety will not stop me if I got the opportunity. And my last hope will be as the part time research assistant to my lecturers.

Ya Allah, please take away my anxiety from me and if this is the hardship for me, please let me have courage to overcome it. Please promise me a stable future, stable career, and faithful relationships. I really hope I could free from these unnecessary and get my dream job.

Ya Allah, please make sure my families and friends are sound and safe. And please let us to be able to go thought the Covid outbreaks. All the frontliners will be safe.

Ya Allah, please forgive all the sins of mine, my parents, my families and friends. Please make sure we all will be the members of the Heaven. Strengthen our the faithfulness towards you. Amin.

The whole world is worry about the outbreaks of the corona virus, it definitely will be  record as important history and this stage of my life would also be a unforgettable events of mine. May everything will be ease by You Ya Allah. Amin.

May my next post will get more frequent.  May this would be the last post of mine about all the sadness, anxiety or depression. At least please let me to have slow progress of getting better or treatment effect. May my condition getting better everyday.

My faith to Allah and thing that changed my thought.

Well well, look who is back on updating her blog. It's like this place really needs a big clean up.

Like how many years again for the last update? two? or more?

I almost forgot that I had a blog where I wrote the events and memorable stuff here. I did have a few quick looks at the previous post. All I could say is that my English improves a lot. Not only the grammar, well of course with the help of Chrome to correct it for me, but the way I delivered the meaning and things I wanted to express are getting better. I keep on questioning myself what the heck was I trying to say in that post.

A really big facepalm to myself.

 I realize the last post was about my life or final exam of a second-year University student. But actually, there was a hidden post on my draft so I am just gonna ignore or delete that one. Hence it was like 5 years ago I believe.

Wow. Big shoutout for that. For these 5 years, I had done another 4 to 5-semester exam, 10 weeks of internship as the I&C trainee, I had the toughest time when my dad was had the heart attack where I almost felt broken apart but Alhamdulillah, Allah haven't taken him from me, getting fatter, stressing about all the project of every subject, done my final year project, I graduated without extending my degree, having my first car, work as the part-time tutor, get my first job and quit, convocation where I hard work payback after 4 years and the final moment for the batchmate to meet and gather before entering the employment life, and I get another job offer as the SL1m trainee and finally as the permanent staff at Petrofiq Sdn Bhd. Oh, not forget about the termination of all my office-mate too. Reason? Just the end of operation of the company.

It is just a way of life though, people come and go. I thankful for Petrofiq the opportunity and experiences, I meet great people and fun friends too indeed. We are still contacting each other after we all had gotten apart.

I had been jobless for about 7 months. I never had really realized that 7 months had passed. I mean I really should though. These 7 months, my sister had moved to Kuantan to pursue her study, I had travel for 2 timed, Aunty Mina had passed away and all.

2019 is getting the end. It is already in the mid of November. Time flies, and I didn't do any productive or memorable thing in 2019.

But there at least a sweet thing happens where I am employed and will have my first day of work next Monday. My first job after 7 months being hiatus.

The main reason for me to post is here. I am going to talk about what happened and the feeling for the jobless period I had gone through. I know there is a lot more human face the hardships that much more worst than mine. But, this is my real-life story and it change my way of thinking. I am going to share it with those who might face the same situation. Everyone has a different tolerance of pressure toward anything that there had gone through of their life. As the idioms saying Standing On One's Shoes. Basically, it means you could not understand someone's life or situation as you are not in their position or perspective. So yah. Let get started.

I had felt hopeless and sad for these past 7 months. My sleeping hour was upside down, I felt embarrassed to update my status. I felt so useless whenever I saw the activities of my friends did on the network.

I questioned so much. I even felt so unfair. To compare the quality of lifestyle of them and mine, I realized there was the moment that I felt Allah is not being fair to me to where I know I shouldn't thinking that way. I kept recalling and told myself they were not as good me but why did they get a better offer and who let them have the permission to have higher demands of job than me. I was better.

Later I had convinced myself that Oh maybe Allah had better options for me than them. And that's the reason I started to wait. Wait for better option to come to me without any effort and done anything. I only did search and apply through the Jobstreet and other online mechanisms. I did attend to some career fairs but sadly no reply from any company that I did drop my resume in.

This anxiousness always exists and it gets worst/obvious when my sister came back from Kuantan for a few days

I have been blamed. Blamed for not being effective, blamed for being picky, blamed for not being serious on the journey of my job hunting. Some really do not understand the low confidence of us the fresh graduate with the lower class qualification. Of course, this shouldn't be blamed on them. I mean, the qualification result did affect your chance of getting the job. A higher chance will be given to those who are better so deal with it.

But all of the hopeless of the rejection of job application, the judgement of the family, the struggle of searching the chances and all depression were finally shaken the confidence of myself. I felt so sad. I don't want to look at the achievement of others as it reflects on how awful of myself. I get frustrated and wanted to escape when my family questioning my situation. My temper gets so bad. I felt angry all the time. I even felt anxious and nervous for no reason. I get so paranoid when I heard my name was mentioned by my mom or sister where I was so sure they were bad-mouthing me on my situation.

The worst is while all the things happened, I act like I don't care, I act like things will get better which luckily it does getting better a bit. But at that time, I kept telling myself that things will get better even tho I know it was the worst. I act like I did not know what were they trying to say, I act like I still have the chance, I act like I haven't given all the best I could but in fact, I did all the best I could be.

I could not even cry cause I know I am not in the position to do so. I ignore the help signal that flashed in my though. I was so naive to think that ignore it and it will disappear. Ignore it so it did not happen. But things get worst.

It started when I was told to get rid of garbage (Well, it's my chore to do so). While I was walking to the front gate of my house, I start to feel depressed. Maybe Allah wants to help or save me or wanted me to be patient on his plan. The words Allah had a better plan to you, the worst time will pass, He will not let you face the hardship that you could not handle, these kinds of words get into my mind. Sadly, I denied it. Just a moment of time, I feel like I cursed (Of course in my mind). I denied it by questioned Him. So when will it pass? Am I not in the worst situation? I must be forgotten as I am not a good follower of him. These words are all bullsh*t. It could not calm me down. And all these denying thoughts pass through my mind within just a few seconds. Then I realize I  shouldn't do so. I should not question him. But the negative thoughts were like keep hunting me and I tried to find a calming source for myself. But no. I don't see any stars cause there was the notice of storms coming soon and I am not sure what will I get to feel better if I did saw the stars.

If it was a starry night but I still feeling down over it, I am guessing that I will feel even worse than this. Hahaha.

Back to it, I knew I don't feel alright at all and I knew it was its wrong to questioning Allah over my situation and I could not calm myself. Again, I ignore it, get inside the house and not give in another thought to it.

I know I am getting much more pressure when my brother started to ask my sisters to collect funds on paying my car loan. I told him I still could pay for it but he insisted I am not which is true cause I started to dig my own ASB savings. My sisters were trying to insist that I still able to pay it but my brother knows it was the limit of my savings.

"Its been a while for her unemployment. Do you think she still has the money to pay?"

Its pressure me a lot. I never want my unemployment had become another of pressure to anyone of my family.

Here came the worst night ever, after my sister return to Kuantan. I felt so hopeless and hard to breathe when I was alone in my room. My head was so heavy that I felt like I could pass out any time soon. It was so heavy that I could not sit straight ( I was sitting). My shoulder bent so much that it was so hard to straighten up. A heavy thought had come to my mind. It told me that life is so tired, I want to throw away this life. My chest tightening. I force myself to not think so but it like the heavy negative though crushing my positive mind. And to against it, it was tired too. I get scared. It feels like I could not control how my mind works. Is that how the suicidal people going through? I scared of Allah, I scared of pain, and I scared of death. People die not in the hands of himself. Allah planned it. But I scared that even though I know and understand all of this, I still could not control myself. I scared that I diagnosed with the so-called depression. I was so scared to tell my parents or others.

And next, I did the thing I am good at. I ignored it again. But this time, I prayed. I prayed to get rid of this situation as soon as possible, I prayed to not beat down for this situation. I prayed so that I am strong enough, I pray to have something that is good for me to happen, if it is still not the time, please have something happen to distract me from the negative. Please let me get near to you, please don't make me strong enough to not judge you. Please forgive my sins, the sins of my family, and make us one of them who could stay in heaven. Please took us when we are closest to you. Amin.

My prayer answers me the next morning. He did hear me. I get a call from a friend of mine to go for an interview and I get the job after an hour stayed at home. Alhamdulillah.

Though I know this is not the best situation yet but there is a change of my though. It makes me stay believe on Allah. Stop questioning all the hardships. Keep the faith for Allah and His plan. Though I still get shaken on my life and still feel anxious, but my faith for Him gets stronger.

La ilaha illallah Muhammadur Rasulullah.

I wrote all the things and feeling so that whenever there is a day that I feel weak, I could look back and remember again.

To be honest, it is hard for me to write back all the details. Not only it is hard to remember all the events and thought, but also the heavy feeling on it.

For sure now I am trying to change myself back to the productive me. Well, I was not that productive to begin with, but I wish I could make myself a new me, with passion in life, less worry, happy, a full of wonders and faith, It is not that I don't like myself now, I really like the life of being slack of and all, but I wish I could enjoy the things that I should be experienced on my current age and times. We are all getting old, aren't we?

Time goes without turning back. So if it is the time, then just do it.

I am glad my family and I are sound and great.

Just another of day

Yasmin.

long hiatus. Life Realization

Being a University student, especially a 2nd year, I could only say, i have no idea what am i doing all this time. To tell the truth, it is actually really been busy, especially the previous semester. 4 Final, 4 project and 4 type of assignment. But i enjoy myself.

I realized that i changed so much from being a 1st year student. Thinking that last minute study will be fine. There will always have a solution for all the worries and shit. But you know what, the best solution will not be there if you waiting for the solution. The best solution will appear when you search for it instead of waiting for it.

A Chinese saying that 船到禁头自然直, when the time comes, there will be a solution for the problem. This is only the excuse for those who didn't have passion on there work. I refuse to give up when i know there is actually a chance. Just do your best until the end. or else you will just end up with regret.

I really need to thank Farah for my changes. Not because she inspired me, but motivated me. As I looked at her, its like Im looking through the mirror. It reflects on me. Everything she did make me feel like I saw myself. I hate it. Not that I hate her. But hated myself. Her personality is exactly like me. Make me feel so scared.

When you looked at yourself, you wont see your own problem, But when you looked other, you will pointed out everything that is wrong with them. As I looked at Farah, there are so many expect that I have a harsh feelings with, At the same time, I realize that I'm doing the same stuff like she did.

I decided to change myself. To not being like her, cause I know when i'm different from her, I'm different from my old self too. This is why I really should have thanked her instead of hating her. Through Farah had dropped off from the course, her action motivated me to keep surviving in this course. To not being like her, i won't stop my study even tho the hardest part is just going to begin. In shaa Allah. I will be Okay and will keep fighting from the old me,

As I have about two years left for me to finish my studies-era, I wonder if I can graduate in 2 years time. I started to feel anxious for my future. Will I be able to get a great job will satisfied salary?  Will I even get hired? Every uncertain feeling and thought crossed to my mind. But one thing for sure is that I need to score it so that i will succeed toward the end.

I have never been that enthused before. Thanks to Vhikna and Rhen, because of them, I feel like I didn't want to get lost.  I realized that friend really is a great source when you wanted to change yourself. It will be even better if you thought them as a rival. This will eventually make you feel like don't wanna lost to them and at the same time, you will get a life inspired whenever you feel like you need one, just express to them your problem. If they really like you, they will definitely get some advice from them.

I never have a friend like Vhikna before. How to say this. Erm. She is a type of friend that will speak out the most real and honest things about you when you reach a kind of level of relationship. I'm definitely ok with that. In fact, i really like her. Rather than a friend telling some untrue statement, I feel like I'm more confident and relax while being with Vhikna.

Farah definitely won't agree with me, as she isn't the type that wants to hear about the ugly truth. But I hope she will realize that, the so-called friend that will tell lie to make you feel better wont last forever. What's the point of only be friends with someone always agree with you. In the end, you will just be in your own lie and life.

I really happy with my change now and I hope it will last forever. If I need to story what had happened during my hiatus on updating the blog, 2 to 3 post won't be enough.

Until next time

Yasmin Bt Amru

12.3.15

My Little make up collection

Im sorry.. So sorry.. Was promised to update last week.. But i didnt.. I end up delayed my update evetho i wasn'r really busy.

Here are the things i promised to show.
My little make up collection.
For early inform.. I really don't have much make up. But i still continue in making my collection to grow bigger and BIGGER!! Muahahaha

Here we go


My first liquid eyeliner that i bought about 2 years ago. Its Za, a drugstore eyeliner. Cost me about RM 26++. Its not really a expensive eyeliner and not really oil and waterproof so i usually use this for the practice my eyelining skill.

The Body Shop  Carbon Black Definer

I bought for The Body Shop. Its a carbon pencil eyeliner and i bought for about RM50++ with 30% discount. It not really a good stuff for me since I havemonolid. So the natural oil will smear the liner. So i rarely use this stuff. 

Im still finding some new eyeliner that suitable for me. 

I really want to try the Lioele gel eyeliner. But yesterday when i want to have some swatch around the parkson. They had remove the Lioele booth. I wonder if the sale is not good that they decided to remove it. But i definitely will try to search one at KL next year. 

Holika Holika Aqua Petit Jelly Starter

Holika Holika Aqua Petit Jelly Starter

Holika Holika Aqua Petit BB cream

Holika Holika Aqua Petit Jelly BB cream

I bought this two BB cream and BB cream starter at Holika Holika for RM 105 recently. Holika holika are still on sale until this 31 August. So hurry up and grab one 

I really like this BB cream and starter. Its a Aqua Petit series. The texture of both is just like the name. It has Jelly texture but it can applied easily on your face and few drop is enough for the whole face. 

The starter and the bb cream should be applied togthr for a better result by mixing both. And this BB cream contained mostly water or mint water ingredient. So its a water base BB cream. It has the cooling effect when u applied on ur skin and most important it doesn't feel sticky. I really hate the sticky feel when i applied some BB cream. Hence this might be my fav BB cream so far. 

both this eyeshadow palette called The sleek palette. Both were bought by my sister from UK and its were a drugstore make up. So its not that expensive and small in size. but i really this this both palette because they are so pigmented. 4 stars for this..

Etude house CC cream in Silky

Next is the CC cream. It got this CC cream form Etude house for only RM 40. I bought this on there anniversary day. Everything were buy one free one. This CC cream is Okay. It just that i don't' like the sticky feeling when finished. The price for this CC cream was actually RM 89.90. 

Here my advise for u if you what to buy any Korean Cosmetic brand. Wait for their sale. You will get alot of discount benefit. 

This also a make up palette that my sis bought from UK for me. Its come with blush but the pigmentation is really disappoint me.

Maybeline Eyeshadow tattoo. Really pigmented. Really nice. And also bought by my sis for UK eventho Malaysia is available for this.

Next is also Maybeline. Its a big eye studio eyeshadow palette. Same here, good pigmentation and also bought by my sis. Big Eyes hurr.. Hmm.. definitely my need.

 This is the cheapest make up i have so far for costing me RM10 only. My roomate help me by bought this from her friends. Eventho its cheap. but the pigmentation is good. But i dont like the shimmery in that lip tint.

Lastly my Peripara watery Lip tint. I asked my sis to help me bought from Penisular Mal for this. I havent saw any peripera product in Sabah yet. But i hope they will bring in some at here. I really like peripera's cosmetic. The packaging is so cute. And because of this lip tint is in watery base. It last longer that the milky texture lip tint.

Thats all for my current collection. And to tell the truth. I didnt put all my stuff up here. There are one lipstick from Revlon, lip tint from holika holika and Eyeliner from silky girls that I forget to put up here. 

But its not a big deal. Mostly my make up collection are here. Just ignore the small detail :).

Im the type of person that will read the review of a certain product that i wish to buy before i bought it. Hence the cosmetic I bought mostly satisfy me a lot. 

I wonder if i use my grammar correctly in this post cause i get really sleepy when typing all of this.

Thats all for now.. see u next time. Lets sleep. 

July 2014

I really forget when was the last time i post... Well.. Guess like im really getting lazy this day. 

Eventho its been awhile.. I still havent post any about my degree here rite?

Obviously, Im done my 1st year of degree 2 week ago.. Yeah.  I know.. 1 year has been past and im going to enter 20 this oct.. Kinda terrify me this whole grow up thingy. 10 years ago im still at Tawau. 7years ago im at Sdkn.. and now.. Im no longer a teen.. 

Its was like i was just graduated form KML yesterday but now im done with the freshman year..

I really should blog more often next time as im staying at home for the coming semester.. Thats way at least i can job down what i had done for my 1st 20th lifestyle.. 

Am no longer a lil girl anymore.. 

As i enter the life of growth up.. i started to get interest in cosmetic thingy.. I believe i have told that before.. So was going to show off my cosmetic products that i buy few month til 2 week ago. But not in this post.. Maybe next post.. huhuhu.. and i will post about my next post within this fewdays.. Or maybe 1 week later (who knows.. Im a busy person) 

For now.. im more interest in talking what had happen since the last post.  

Guess what.. my sis.. i mean the one before me.. yes my mum's 2nd daughter.. Want to get marriage with her boyf that she has not know him for a year yet.. it not that im judging her or anything.. Well i met the boy before .. he seems a nice guys for me.. but will she not feel any regret after this.. I definatly will bless for her.. i just dont want her to get regret afterward.. and most important.. whos gonna gossip with me about all the in law that we have. . How dare they left me behind.. short word.. This year till next year will be a restless year for my family..

OHH.. and about the coming-soon-new-family member.. nahhh.. not the new in-law one.. what i mean is the a new life will come to this world soon.. YES!!The baby!! It seem he or she is in health.. My big sis baby bumps getting more obvious.  IM SO EXCITING!!  I really hope that it will be a baby girl but my instinct say big possible that the baby will be a baby boy.. Ohh well.. I guess i will still love him too.. 

Hope November will come soon.. 

But for now.. I just want to enjoy holidays!!!

For this 2 week.. I been watched around 6-8 anime.. And im very satisfied with all those i had watched.. Will update about the anime next post too..^^

 So i guess until here than.. Getting too sleepy.. cant even concentrate on what im going to type.. 

Just ignore all those error spelling and grammer.. My eyelids are heavy enough rite now..

UNTIL NEXT POST.. and i promise will update soon since im free this day.. Chaosss~~~♡♡♡

Early May Update.

Late night update again. I really cant remember when the last time i update my blog. And I even need to look back at my last post to see what i had post the last time.Even though this isn't the first time I gap for so long.

I pretty sure that this is not the 1st update for 2014. Cause i did update for my friend birthday prank before. But I didnt update much about what is going on this haft-way year. 

So I'm officially going to be an aunt on around November this year. It quiet late for me to update here. But I still excited to tell this great news. Somehow I got a lil bit upset at first. Well you know. The feeling to know you are no longer the youngest among the family. And also to know that the delivery of the baby might be at Nov - Dec. Cause I really dont want anyone to interrupter the month between me n my lil bro bday. We the only two to celebrate bday at the end of the every years. But if the baby really need to delivery btwn this  two month. Cant help then. Just welcome the new life with somehow itchy heart i guess.. 

NAHHHH just kidding.. I will still love my first nephew or niece. HAHA.

If I really need to update what had i done for this almost half year really is IMPOSSIBLE.. To tell truth. There is nothing really special happen except Farah got her own car last week.. 

Yup.. No need walk to school and walk back dome anymore..HAHAX.. 

Say no more to dark skin.. Finally I can protect my face against the UV. I really upset at the beginning of the year that the raining rate really rare until last week, i can smell the smell of the rain. Praise the lord..LoL.

To Myself update..

Lately,I felt interest in the cosmetic thingy. Huhu.. Guess now I want to change to be a bit of  lady like. Im still an amateur. Was thinking to be a Youtuber when i started to be expert in this. Well, I might get famous and earn some pocket money from the youtube.. AHHAAHAHAH.. NAH just kidding.. Though i really want to do so. ahhahaha..

And I had my eyes on this

Its the DOcomo Fujitsu F-02D Flip-phone. 

Aren't they BEAUTIFUL

Probably want the pink or white one. I had already watch the review of this phone and know where to buy it. Hence. This phone will be on my wishlist.** fingercross**

I will update about this phone more if i really gotten it. Now still on the way of  saving money. 

That why i need to find a way to have some income. And I still have to take my driving licence before my 3rd sems of degree to begin. 

Hmmm.. wish me luck..

One more thing for my to worry. My final will be on the early of this June. I need to start study. I want to get higher pointer for this time if i wish to get scholarship. And I learned my lesson last sems for not being really for the final. Hope I will not disappoint my parents feeling for this time. 

Finally, although study are important, but i will not ignore the update of the anime. 

Here some spring anime that I currently watching.

First, soredemo sekai wa utsukushii

The story line are funny and the song are nice too.. The only thing i dont like is that the main male chac are younger or i should say he is just a 10year old boy. But overall, this anime should be nice to see. 

next Black Bullet

An action and fantasy anime. I not the type that love to watch action anime but this one really is nice. And its another anime with a loli (girl below 12yo) chac in here. But i would recommend to watch.

lastly Bokura wa minna kawaisou

I think its a romance anime i guess.  At 1st , I just love the op n ed song of the anime. But i end up keep watching it although its a lil bit ecchi. I guess i just need to keep watching to tell if this is nice or not.

There are still have other anime on my watch list. But I might need to continue watch them after my final, 

So just bare with it Yasmin.. Chaiyokk u can do it..

Then until my next update..

CiAo~

  

Prank or surprise?? u name it

Happy belated Birthday to my friend.. Sahadan.. Sorry la didnt wish u on time on the day of ur bday.. was planning to have some prank for u. Next time.. i swear that next time i will really make u taste the favor of flour..  become white for the top to bottom. Some revenge for my last time punya birthday Haha.. anyway.. wish u have a great one Bro ^^

Sincerely.. Some trick from ur lovely coursemate.. hahahaha..