It sink....

Do you know the feeling when someone told you that you won't be able to achieve your dream..

Let me told you what that feel...

It feel suck.. Your heart sink.. You will hard to breath.. You even can't try to lift up your lips.. The worst thing is when you try your best not to let the tears to flow out from the eyes.. The moment when you try not to make your voice to be sound husky..

Plus when the person is one of your family member.. One of your sibling.. The one who know you better than the other.. The one who actually you share about your feel and your wish..

Maybe she knows what should I be for the better.. Maybe she is more experienced than me.. Maybe she wants me to consider the financial condition of our family.. After all, she is knowledgeable.. She is the smartest among us.

I'm not saying that I disagree with her.. And i know she was right. Her words have point. I have no complain...

Maybe because I'm the one who is really stubborn and immature..

Every time when i feel sad, I just need to have a sleep.. And when I woke up, I forgot the feeling of sadness.. It always work for me.. But I wonder is this time works too...

I know maybe she didn't know she hurt me a lot and she didn;t mean it.. As my elder, it's right for her to tell me the reality.. But sometimes words still can hurt people..

Tomorrow is unpredictable.. But let's consider it is a surprise for yourself.. It is always a wonder for tomorrow

KNock Knock... I'm awake from the bad dream..

That's right i'm awake from this bad dream..

The last 7 month.. what a waste..

Guess i just need to put double effort on it.. or maybe triple.. Hmm.. Arhhh Tetra la... Muahhaha

ohhhohhh.. Today my school had organize the expo pendidikan.. Mann.. I wait for this for the whole year.. and i push myself to go to school for this morning.. But mumy had said something that is really hurt my feeling.. I want to show her i can get anything that i want.. I'm not going to use any of dady's money for the fee of any tanggungan.. Of course except for he to buy the gadget that i NEED.. ouuuu i learned a new course today.. Computer Forensic... Wowww.. Let try to aim for this course...

Next I want to say sorry to THAT Shahirah.. Ok not that i hate you.. And i sorry that scolded you SIAL... Sorry for the word Buduh.. really.. But i know you know that why am i scold you like that.. ANd if people say no.. You shouldn't force them... I am sorry but i hope for your apologize too.. You did hurt me too you know..

Lately, i always go to library with nicole and dayang them.. It help me save money and diet you know.. Hehehe.. Oiishiaaaa.. Let study everyone...

And another news.. I didn't selected for the National service 1st batch.. Well about the 2nd and 3rd batch let see if i'm lucky enought not been choosen.. Or should i say worst enough not been choosen...

Let see... ...

Till the nest post XD..

Oh the great of the sky, Please start to rain soon.. It's hot enought to cook a rock you know...

RAIN PLEASE... I love rainy night

you purposely do that, don't you... pttth

I know that i'm friendly

I know that i have many friends

I know that i have good attitude

I know that i have morel value

I know that i have a sweet and lovely face(BEErrr XXDD)

What else i can argue.. He had gave me this.. I glad to have all of it.. Although i always complain about not having what i wish for..

Dear for the girl

You have such an unique personality.. I really jealous with you.. You have the popularity that i want... The good handle in language or i mean BI that i need.. The dimple that i wish for.. The fair and smooth skin i hope to have.. The intelligent that i never can get..

Life really unfair isn't it.. But I'm in the midst of happiness.. Well at least now i feel like that.. :) Why do you destroy yourself like this sweetie... Fuuuiiiyooorrr...

The way you spend half of your life like this... Aren't you feel there is a big waste.. So you think you're cool enough shouting out the birds shit in the middle of the class and everybody are look at you.. Yeah you really did made me felt embarrassed... OKAY.. You did it great.. And you know what... CONGRATS.. You're in my 1st of black name list... **claps

At first i really don't think it's a big deal when people spreading around the rumors of your personality.. Or i just thought it just a rumors.. But not until nicole and i, myself conform it.. You really have that part in you...

Stop now.. it just make me no different with her..

Just an advise.. Don't drop our female's dignity.. Without boys we still can leave.. But without honor you're cheap!!!

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Another happy day that i had for today.. Except some incident happened.. Hmmm ... What a good day.. hahaha...

Ohohoh.. You got check or not.. The name list of PLKN... Well i havent check yet... The web show the error.. Maybe too much candidate try to excess it.. MAYBE... Half of me want to be picked... But other half don't want to... Heee.. Whatever la...

Ohoh and Pn chu sot liao.. tiba2 scold us.. Oh well i think it maybe our fault also because did't really respect her in class... MAYBE...

Yerrr Nicole Raul mungkir janji.. Bilang maw chat di skype... I wait for you the whole day girl..

FINE... You wait for me tomorrow...

I want to watch Hana Kimi new ver so badly.. ARHHHH Nishii SO CUTE!! Just like a baby to me... ** AWWW ** Next i'm waiting for You're beautiful japanese ver or ikemen desu ne.. Ryutaro i'm still waiting for you to come back.. Come back soon

“森本、早く帰って濃いよ。
Morimoto, let’s come back soon.”

—	Inoo Kei (JUMPaper 2011.07.11)

BAhhh still have school lagi tomorrow... UNTIL 3 arh.. Oh

Nicole sorry can't be with you until 4.30.. Hope you see this message..

Lub you always.. Lub you pakai mop..XXXDDDD

I'm such an apple in teachers' eyes XXDDDD

Isn't it.. I'm such an apple in teachers' eyes..

Well at least i feel like that..

From the bio class Pn Cecilia called me out for label the Secretion diagram till the PI class..

Berrr.. I wonder how my PE teacher to remember my name.. He always catch me whenever or whatever i'm doing.. Just like today Yasmin this is the second week you didn't wear your PE shirt.. Yasmin aren't i told u to stand there catching the ball!!??

And i was like *0* how can he always remember me every time in PE class..

I feel bad cause till now i didn't know what his real name is...

I'm such an apple in his eyes, aren't I.. XXDDD

Maybe because nicole not absent today.. I'm totally focus in the class.. I swear.. That's why when in PI class I keep on standing instead of sitting and the busybody-dayang keep on telling me to sit down but i refuse to...

Well I'm in such a high spirit of learning and keep on answering Ustaz question.. Out of blue I correct all the way..

I'M SUCH AN APPLE IN TEACHER'S EYES, AREN'T I

Muahhahaa...

Class started from 7 am to 3 pm.. I wonder how i just spend all my times just now.. And i still feel energetic... Did i drink nescafe before... No i guess no.. What's wrong with me actually...

Guess maybe something good is going to happen.. I wonder what... Hmmm Maybe DSLR XDDD

Or maybe JAPAN (OUUUU)

But what i know is I must be hardworking to get what i want..

Lately, I guess I have my 15% of my motivation for this.. no.. not this... for SPM i guess..

Just imagine how your feel when holding a result with many A's on it... How proud are you when ur cousin asking for your result.. How interesting when you're going to study abroad..

Mannnnn this is awesome... Come and start hypnosis myself

I LOVE STUDY

I LOVE BM

I LOVE BI

I LOVE BIO

I LOVE CHEMIS

I LOVE PHYSIC

I LOVE ADD MATH

I LOVE MATH

I LOVE PENDIDIKAN AGAMA

I LOVE SEJ

I WILL GET 9As

Yes girl keep on doing this for the next 4 months...

I have 4 months to go... Just keep swimming just keep swimming..

Gahh... the only thing that make my mood down to the MIN is

Ustazah:" Yasmin, ustazah tengok ko makin CUTE suda.."

T.T It was exactly the same thing she told me two years ago..

This cause me to make 2 new goals

-SCORE 9As (well if 7 As also can)- don't over push urself k..

- DIET!!!

The latest photo of mine

And

I'm proud that I have natural beauty instead of having it by surgery or make up (Uiseh)

But still natural is the best

Dear Allah,

Please make my the two and only goals in this year to be success.. I always and love you forever and i know YOU do too.. Amin

Till the next post.. :)